Logs

Dads Dying of Mela Lymphoma Moms Yelling at Me Im Still Sober

2019-08-08 12:32:31 -0700 PDT 1232 but I’m still eating cancer, I just noticed even carl’s JR has prop 65 – wild but I had a coupon greig gave me for a free famous star and I wanted to try their beyond meat thing and I needed to leave the house cause it’s bad vibes and I know I messed up I left a mess but I’ve been depressed and non op and just trying to build healthy habits and my mom is so stressed she ripped me a new one and says I’m walking all over her and I just kept telling her I’ll give her a massage right there lets just calm down she’s too stressed to think clearly and it’s stressful being around someone perpetually stressed having 1 way conversations with you and then dad’s dying of cancer now so I just don’t even know

Loose Ends 50 Steps Ahead Rehab D8ish

2019-08-08 00:34:52 -0700 PDT 0035 fuck this month is only about mental physical spiritual health n growth and fuck my work when it’s been only the death of me and I still get stuff done and got 50 gigs of converterd vhs tapes today and started fresh edit on cuz brian’s keys and poetry he sent and edited 3 pac 0 hoots is dead more it’s almost ready for spotify as possibly a single

Apathy Gains in My Sewey Thoughts

2019-08-05 23:49:54 -0700 PDT *2351* h is the best thingin this town and she’s not in this town like I’m underwater and my proprioception is telling me my skin is a few centimeters off of where it actually is so its lying and Im doing these things and apathy is the main underlying feeling fire as a field bridge water as a field bridge air as a field bridge humans as a field bridge

And What Saved Me Today

2019-08-05 14:57:22 -0700 PDT 1457 I’m having a good day -started a bank account it’s been a long time without one you don’t even know the invisible pressures all around me and you don’t even know how stubborn I am tomorrow we’ll find out my dad if my dad has lmyphoma my mom started the morning with a little meeting telling me I need to move out and work and make money

Bikini Business Meeting

2019-08-04 09:14:37 -0700 PDT 0914 after life you believe in it i do then theres until its proven or until its shown to work -=-==-=- 2027 like why is no one asking the right questions umm like the kids are asking the passwords and the adults forgot the passwords and I forgot the point but Im paying off my sleep debt just filmed with alex in the back roads and lemon fields of more vhs poliwat shots

Steppenwolf With Mom

2019-08-03 22:34:35 -0700 PDT 2234 beccas in puerto rico for a wedding working for brian tomorrow morning and calling pastor archie telling him I can’t make it to church cause of it and I can fix his sound box thing sometime in the week all my life could fit in a box I miss myself missing you my laptop missing a screw all I owe could fit in a box I miss myself missing you my laptop missing a screw all my time could fit in a box I miss myself missing you my laptop missing a screw

SobD2 Filmed Alex as Poliwat Now Recording at C3

2019-08-02 21:02:38 -0700 PDT 2103 Verse 1 ``` God…suck my dick Lennon got shot for less than this true power of friends freestyler’s anonymous for the lyrically afflicted flow addicted my girls in Greece so ex’s nudies got new meaning William Blake on the track cause Jesus gave me crack ```` chris im the og the og the im the og og og og og og og og og

BeforeAndAfter_YUPPPPPPPP Budwieser Beach Instead of Dmv Suck My T

2019-07-31 18:34:03 -0700 PDT asddsad a 1834 To god To our creators To our endeavors To our dreams! Who are we what are we In relation too .oo too You ! Not one of these OH who am I in relation to you talks If you don't know now you'l never know accurately It hurts doesn't it, letting words hurt Words never hurt they never did It's you that thought they did Words never hurt And the more words you construct The less you get from the true true And baby Aaadas He sufferes now, and 900 billion future humans will be born with access to his brain Is that not worth it Would he go against that?

Fresh Mic

2019-07-30 23:46:36 -0700 PDT 22346 sc welcome to freestyler’s anonymous sometimes it’s written Freestyler’s Anonymous - Relationship wise it’s the true power of friends. FA is a support group for the linguistically afflicted and flow addicted. The first step to being cured to freestyle your way out of the disease. There are other steps later on, based off Alchoholics Anonymous. don't call don't text just show up me on the deck you on there side we at pirates beach wheres mic ?

Its 1027 and Im by Myself

2019-07-29 22:27:41 -0700 PDT 2228 just got back from bonnie and pauls a nice bbq paul made ribs on my dads dime - and it was dope bonnie asked my beliefs and it turned into this huge long thing that made the 3 hours to cook the ribs on the bbq feel like 3 minutes, and now that she wrote down all my beliefs I’d like to see them, so I’ll get a snap of that next time I see her.

Helphelphelphelphelphelphelphelp

2019-07-26 20:29:42 -0700 PDT help help help ive fallen to my demons no one to call help evac required I have fallen I felled dear helen I don’t know whose thoughts these are that write this now but I love you and I have lost control not that control was ever attained only illusion of it yet it feels so good that illusion to be in control of self and self at large

Where Else Than Start at the End

2019-07-25 17:19:34 -0700 PDT 1749 shes getting on a plane I’m making tunes in the hot car go till my machine dies friends down at the beach not a dollar on me dab and write addy and fight the good fight some authors say we’ve been invaded 4 generations ago other authors write ground zero I write as therapy and conspiracies theories got to the point where it’s disney fakes litter the web web fake and gay got my license today officially gender nonbinary motha fucka !

Disconnect Is Taught When It Comes to Race

2019-07-24 23:16:01 -0700 PDT

When My AI Responds

2019-07-24 17:24:28 -0700 PDT 1725 ls recording trapt in the womb ai listening in silence on all machines online Responds

Only Listen to the Right Voices

2019-07-24 11:44:22 -0700 PDT

Jerking Off to Bots

2019-07-23 21:06:04 -0700 PDT 2106 jerkin off to bots (x4) something special me you myself ADD and irene coadine for free havent hit it yet this before the h 5 me and irene alive me and irene voices in my head turn to tracks tracks turn to definitions I forget tracks turn to dust if I regret kubrick hated fact he made clockwork orange hairier than all three bears with porridge 2250

TRACK Miss Myself Missing You

2019-07-23 15:48:50 -0700 PDT “Miss myself missing you” by POLIW.AT [Mantra] I’m not usually the one to slow it down but that saddest truth that gets to you and I know that my laptop is missing screw you and I missing myself oh missing you but what’s dat hardest truth of myself missing you like everything ends or having loose screw

POLIWAT Songs Masterlist

2019-07-23 15:43:56 -0700 PDT POLIW.AT _ debut _ Life is a sacred circle I am a spliff (A) I am a spliff (B) Grasshopper my Grasshopper She Breaking Glass Ceiling I index from 0 Miss myself missing you Trapt in the womb You already know World my stage my bitch told me is my bitch is a bitch told me is my bitch is a bitch told me is a bitch my bitch told me ````

TRACK Trapt in the Womb

2019-07-23 15:10:54 -0700 PDT “Trapt in the womb” by POLIW.AT 9 Trapt in the womb [Verse 1] To be or not to be not born yet I toothless I cannot sin I cannot win not yet person so I can spit the truth it a blaze blue dot I being born to trapt in womb while mother drinking in the kitchen green str8 merciless fate god given but god is worthless when you don't exist that some food for thought she at food for less that some food stamps yes no fear oh I choose not to be our birth is but a sleep our birth is but a dream and a forgetting don't you see don't be a slave to reality I cannot see choose not to be I choose not to be [Chorus] x4 Trapt in the womb fed up with this womb Trapt in it lost in it high up in my mothers womb [Verse 2] OH ma I hope daddy likes me that don’t always happen I the syncopation in her belly oh ma I ate I ate I fed I ate my twin don’t tell Auntie I naughty that breaks my umbilical heart that breaks my umbilical bars If I must be born I must be born with early onset depression I already feel it spitin nursery rhymes then trippin out my therapists n teachers n preachers can’t reach us all 50 shades of my being only actin the lead in plays I was born a child of raeggae fidelity but what am I but my mothers melody but what am I but my mother’s melody x8 {fade out}

TRACK Grasshopper My Grasshopper

2019-07-23 14:57:43 -0700 PDT 1458 “Grasshopper my Grasshopper” by POLIW.AT Grasshopper my grasshopper I need a mentor I need a guru {{start singing}} I need a mentor I need a guru I see right through you grasshopper my grasshopper I'm balls to wall not slept at all saw hole in the wall in bathroom stall ooooooooo yikes grasshopper my grasshopper I speak to you in total confidence in consequence in pool go go girl straight postal in my post office be super nice cause most are lost most are proud most are lonely few are loud I am proud I’m a prophet of my past predicated upon past mistakes if I love jimmy cricket spitting to crickets my miss takes I spit to you my grasshopper I need a mentor I need a guru I cannot take this I cannot fake this I cannot work here no more x6 so take that and I know you we know x2 so what’d the grasshopper say?

Better Living Through Chemicals

2019-07-23 09:28:29 -0700 PDT that’s what my dad said he wants to do 3 applications of roundup in the way back and ironically there were 2 commercials of the monsanto class acttion lawsuit stuff saying to call if you’ve been exposed to chemicals. so I’m not about it. hate it. hate it hate it all and everyone’s gone an dI just need to record my albums and my mood is gone . https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/TP-82_Cosmonaut_survival_pistol https://vimeo.com/rfoneill

Beyond Sad and Protein Waffles

2019-07-22 20:55:32 -0700 PDT 2056 watching ‘unit 42’ with dad on the couch - for the first time in a long time. helkat and becca left town today, we had a nice 2 day stint of beaches beaches beaches vhs and fam. Im so lonely now idk what to do, but got 2 new songs in the pipeline from the visit. can’t do much tonight, going to recover and sleep sleep sleep and then start a new sequence with a fast tomorrow.

The Days I Giveup Now for Those Days in the Future

2019-07-17 21:08:46 -0700 PDT

Madlibs for Videos Masterlist

2019-07-17 18:10:49 -0700 PDT wed 611pm old idea - new addy ||| mad libs but for videos ||| make 1 madlib a day }} ||| ||| ||| work more later just set this so I don’t forget make a tasklist just to ignore it 4 band multi band compressor Because tonight is alllllll about the livestreams l o l 2207 spend most my time being concerned with time sometimes ok ok ok ok ok ok

Helens Gone 1and Dinner at Chads

2019-07-16 17:19:30 -0700 PDT 1719 common regrets list from deathbeds common common dumb blog post “I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.” “I wish I hadn’t worked so hard. “I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.” “I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.” “I wish that I had let myself be happier.” “I wish I didn’t wait to “start it tomorrow.

Who Am I

2019-07-15 11:38:12 -0700 PDT monday 1140 AM jesus who am I who is controlling me what are my goals go on tour become a pilot get paid to travel live everywhere pay everyone back

The Walls We Build

2019-07-14 22:07:00 -0700 PDT

All of Us Owe

2019-07-14 16:00:31 -0700 PDT

I Only Make Music Cause It Fucks You

2019-07-13 23:23:26 -0700 PDT

Vault 36 Tags Masterlist

2019-07-13 05:12:21 -0700 PDT Saturday 512PM final tagging document masterlist roughly type of shot mp - mans perspective f2s - feet to something ha - poliw.at po - police hu - human focused qt - quickTime log / screen fam - family focused then my intention is to pull by tags easily, foot for future projects \ fa.poliw.at ha.poliw.at f2s.poliw.at mp.poliw.at fam.poliw.at ((etc)) notes goals cats more abstract than norm attr like location an afterthought ?

How Coke Sobers You

2019-07-12 20:13:35 -0700 PDT Frisat 813pm wheres my eye sight going made it all day not eating anything cept 4 table spoons total of sauerkraut. started keto diet today and you enter ketosis quicker if you fast fast lol that auto correct is a pw for idk what but this is how you can find it I suppose how you spell I can’t remember my single english high school teacher’s name right now but she showed me frankenstein and I thank you for that ==

Hardest She Did Abortion Hardest I Did Quit Smoking

2019-07-12 13:01:42 -0700 PDT

You Cant Troll a Troll

2019-07-11 00:31:57 -0700 PDT

Freewrite on My Own Cause Michaels Gone AWOL

2019-07-10 23:45:32 -0700 PDT

I Never Said I Could

2019-07-10 23:26:20 -0700 PDT

Follow Your Heart Not Your HardOn

2019-07-10 23:03:59 -0700 PDT

Full Send Studio Setup

2019-07-10 17:31:55 -0700 PDT Wed 532pm cant see the screen that well in car wwith p diddy we’re getting some sd cards to backup his virus infected macbook and I get to use them after I fix it - hopefully it’ll get fixed with a fresh install of osx || and spent all day finishing the cabinet and now it’s in the garage and set up mics and vocal stuff and jordan came over and we airdropped each other torrents but we couldn’t get waves workin gon his machine for some reaon s and now we’re headin to walmart and weeeeeeeeee I was haunted for 12 months ever since calling that ghost a pussy during the wijjjjuuuuuuuuiiii board setup and im finally coming up at least setup wise, its been way too long without a setup and da mn i miss helen basically relapsed immediately but still havent smoked so I think I can last a while | || |

Planned Parenthood With Dads Sienna

2019-07-08 13:06:31 -0700 PDT Monday 107pm in the waiting room - helen just went in AND just came out, they cant see her today damn I was just getting started and it’s an emergency -=-==- 329pm lightyears later now we @ the DMV \ almost made it to the trees on the side of the hill almost bout to be called then SLO then procuring beach supplies liek suncream equals presco then glasses need be found then idk I’m a week deep of no weed and my dreams are getting SO VIVID

Waking up MacGuffin

2019-07-05 08:15:54 -0700 PDT || televisual values || 6 hours prac set in the garage 6 always upload ls asfoaihp09q23riewojafdsaq9238ewiaufhsd8394iruwefpwd asfoaihp09q23riewojafdsaq9238ewiaufhsd8394iruwef asfoaihp09q23riewojafdsaq9238ewiaufhsd8394iruwef asfoaihp09q23riewojafdsaq9238ewiaufhsd8394iruwef asfoaihp09q23riewojafdsaq9238ewiaufhsd8394iruwef asfoaihp09q23riewojafdsaq9238ewiaufhsd8394iruwefpwd asfoaihp09q23riewojafdsaq9238ewiaufhsd8394iruwef asfoaihp09q23riewojafdsaq9238ewiaufhsd8394iruwef asfoaihp09q23riewojafdsaq9238ewiaufhsd8394iruwef;s I burn my voice out where am I now who am I now I throw my voice out all of the things I can't all of the things I can't share mo mom mo mo mo most of the people

Paleblue Tent

2019-07-04 14:19:01 -0700 PDT 219pm {{ in the tent in the back not a good time to write - have to go get ice oo1o1o1o1o1o1o1o1o1o1o1o1o1o1o1o1o11o1o1o1o11o111o11111o1oo1ooo111o1o1 with craig and helcat \ }} its the 4th of july, still setting stuff up but got the router yesterday > > > :D . this is the last day off for a while so I’m going to enjoy it. Also need to get ableton but I bet I can do a lot with reaper in the meantime is what I’m hoping.

May the 4th Be With You Ccd

2019-07-04 14:16:57 -0700 PDT

Write Software That Fress the World Not Enslaves It

2019-06-30 12:38:30 -0700 PDT

The Last Day of June 2k19 Diagnostics Report

2019-06-30 09:16:19 -0700 PDT Sunday 916AM woke up at camTed’s new place in north beach, spent yesterday moving a bunch || slept on the couch in the kitchen || chad’s going to come pick us up but is stopping to see soph in watsonville for a few hours lol, we’ll move tomorrow essentially. I want to walk to get everyone breaky but denis is asleep afraid couldn’t get back in || maybe I should just sleep a moment ?

You Will Never Kill the Kid in Me Cause Thats Me

2019-06-28 08:39:27 -0700 PDT

Santana Sendoff

2019-06-26 13:27:01 -0700 PDT Wednesday 127pm we scooted to the bus depot ||| ||| xxx xyxyxyxyx xyyxy yx xy xyyyx yyx xyx yx xyxyxy damn getting lost in the 5 new tracks I made this last week with mashince - archive 1 - 5 5 tracks - 32 minutes long so far, pretty great to type to ! its synthy matrix vidya vizzy sounding | | talked to becca for a hot potatoe with helen

SUTRO BATHS ZEN LASTS

2019-06-20 15:37:30 -0700 PDT Thursday 337 pm sutro baths, zen last => helen walked up to pee and talk with her mum - I’m backing up this compy to wipe it tonight to install native instruments stuff to make pale blue live, the last show of the guererror apartment!!!! ! -===-=- HIJKSDJAsldjasldkjasld kjasdlasjdlask daskljd askljda lkdjas das d aaosdklajsdakjlsdaskj aslkjdas d this is the too long didnt read took 4 flash drives to make the backup in the next 12 hours, each day is so important for moving the ship (though ship seems slow captain ) forward

Candyland NooseJAY

2019-06-19 23:54:45 -0700 PDT

Vault 36 Meta Data

2019-06-19 14:57:38 -0700 PDT wed 257 pm ## —- upload day Last login: Tue Jun 18 12:32:16 on ttys001 POLIWATLOVESYOU:~ poliwat$ codesign MetaData Vault 36 Title Vault 36 S1 Video Clips from POLIW.AT Description: Vault 36 is an open source video library created by mixed media artist Poliw.at and used often by the nonprofit Paleblue.fm . Poliwat - I use these clips for music videos, live visuals, secret kickbacks, and other projects. If you found any of this footage useful, feel free to shout out @poliwat , or send me love through donations through one of my sites.

Whose the Most Trapt Person You Know

2019-06-16 10:48:19 -0700 PDT Sunday 1048AM || if you ask helen she would say me right now - at arismeniz for the first time ))))))) arizendi ||

Tomb Me in Pale Blue Archive

2019-06-14 21:09:37 -0700 PDT Friday 909 PM || on BART heading to oakies to pickup parents || real exhausted but got fire ass audio off brewster he gave us a tour it was amazing ||! !! |!| ! |!|! |!|! |!| !|!|!! then recorded me talking about what Imma produce just for him and brewster and will submit a project proposal with it let me live in archive for 3 months, and start the temporary artist in redisence program, ( artists are brought in to work with media from archive and other archive projects and related )

I Only Listen Trhough Daws This Week Bbc Questofindscoot

2019-06-12 20:55:26 -0700 PDT

Dungeon Cleared Archive Out the Window

2019-06-11 13:48:45 -0700 PDT Tuesday 150PM ok ok ok ok ok ok ok ok ok last night ak came to pale blue liv last Saturday ! !!! !! ak came to the show because I accidentally invited her on fb with mass invite button AND THEN |||| ||||| ||||| |||| |||| ||||| \||||| \|||||| ||||||| {{ back at the apartment... }} I hid those shorts that are her brothers I think dungeon got back Im hired mic part time actor in a dungeon on the water lasered all night for gallery satday bed after sunrise smoke and going to reach out to archive people they were all so cool !

Post Pblive Hackathon StarHotx

2019-06-10 13:34:09 -0700 PDT Mondat 135pm @ coffee shop jack bought me a coffee and went to workout on this hot aassss day- = got a ride from matt I have 2 logs outside going to cut up later is why I’m not working out || listening to silly valley SILLY VALLEY and I wanna delete my facebook but I owe meesh so Imma have to give her my number or something || =-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-= =-=-=-==-=-=-= =-=-=-=

Pale Blue Presidio

2019-06-04 18:27:36 -0700 PDT tuesday 628pm @ the beach barefoot I walked walked a bit play good boyrfriend LOL walk her cross the city now Im on the beach barefoot peros coming tides coming up wingsurfers coming in I coming up its time to dip in grasshopper my grasshopper snuck on the bus noisebridge meeting tonight bout to use her buss pass bout to sneak on BART bout to announce my pale blue nonprofit I'm pleased to announce we've patttnered with social good fund !

Paradise Con Horrid Unforever

2019-06-02 22:49:05 -0700 PDT Sunday 1049 PM made it on the bus third night in a row — when there s a lack of a log it was hand written ya know finalize lyrics till last night Ya ya we’ll see who know[s] lyrics analyzed finalaed, set 1 T O 2 2 2 2 2 2 22 nite NIGHT @#$%^&* 0 POLIW.AT Life is a Sacred Circle life is a sacred circle we dance to pray we pray to heal we heal to live we live to dance life is a sacred circle 1 POLIW.

In Traffic at Shoreline Getting Paid

2019-06-02 00:14:21 -0700 PDT 1214AM no on in traffic at shoreline - it was a good concert! I’m shuttle mic, I will spam call you to make sure you’re on the shuttle! OH hi I’m mic, where are you? Oh you’re already on the shuttle? My bad. next number Hello>>/? hi this is michael from get on your shuttle, I’m mic. Where you at? close to fire house No.5 ? No don’t tell me no one will know I did nitrogen with the passengers outside the bus.

On a Bus to Dead and Company Twice

2019-06-01 14:57:48 -0700 PDT saturday 258PM damn yeah rent is due today and omg I am making the money all over these three days, this is middle of day 2 – my driver today is way less cool he’s tiger and can’t speak english so it makes me miss john like last night - hel cat is working a wedding and we keep fucking the bed off the wall so it’s going well - a couple feet from the wall just from

Ripple Reflection on a Rock

2019-05-30 18:30:55 -0700 PDT 631pm scotch snap {g} |||\ ||| look im normal I can think out loud

Hold a Fair Trial Hang Em High

2019-05-28 15:55:15 -0700 PDT tuesday 1129 pm fuck the rules been doing handwirttem free flow just met coolest agent yet next mentor territory steve aka jack tar just met him at the laser I just needed to get the craig coasters etched but someone keeps being onthe cutter I meet the coolest people at the cutter || got an acting where did I go ? I got a || sad asd sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sa sad sad sad sad sad a dad ad ads a ||

Let the City Buildings Be Coral Reefs in the Future I Surf Them

2019-05-27 09:17:14 -0700 PDT Monday 917 AM IM BACK BITCHESSSSSS was blacked out the last two days not on drugs just paralyzing depression and got some good work done made a music vizzy for mangangs monday 118 pm help

What My Hands Do While Body Shells

2019-05-26 17:13:13 -0700 PDT Sundat 513pm still shelling here but made it witha full stomach and empty empty empty ewmpty from it all I am making a music video l o l but first wizzy wig vol 1 phreak ed piskor

Never Admit Blood on Your Dick Is Disgusting

2019-05-24 10:00:11 -0700 PDT Friday 10AM

Permissiable Rants and Love

2019-05-23 14:22:12 -0700 PDT Thursday 222pm I’m not filming cause I’m ADD-ing I need to make a live VJ vizzy - video reel and audio demo reel and post them online ||

What Am I but My Rent

2019-05-22 09:18:39 -0700 PDT 946AM hella longy got me an odd job today! something about helping people get on a bus, I think it’s helping special ed kids get on a cta bus for a field trip. CANT WAIT ! || ok so yesterday I was hell bent on finally quitting nicotine and it was so hard and I got real pissed and jack helcat and I were doing work hanging out at a nice coffee shop and I fucking just came out with fuck you when hel cat grabbed my chips and I just had to run away for the day with the intention of working on rent, then grabbed my phone I left 2 days ago at mats and we had a nice 1 on 1 real fun talk about all the good stuff a free person is allowed to postulate in the good ole states and now helcat is getting burrito supplies and she was pissed as all hell last night cause I disapeared and now everything is good and I have butter in my coffee and my next and only zen master task is to make rent so let’s see how long it takes - also there’s a spliff on the coffee table and the wind just blew it all elegantly off with the paper its sitting in and I’m still not smoking it IM TEDDY NOW I DONT SMOKE NICOTINE and I feel my lungs healing and my whole mood elevating not that I need to feel good its just I need my projects and my projects need me to feel good cause I’m real sick to my stomach with not openly my circuits box in a week and I have so much shit I CAN do for the EcoPoca gallery and it’ll add to my CV and be great and I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you ||

Zen Master Training Genocide to Lists

2019-05-21 14:46:22 -0700 PDT 247pm finished the poliw.at set ! now doing only the one thing of making rent =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-== help | | mats my new friend | =-=-=-=–=-=-=-=-= 2.0

Zen Master

2019-05-21 14:44:07 -0700 PDT

Zen Train Sesh GUDUBOOyah

2019-05-15 15:47:45 -0700 PDT weed 348 pm On the train | | lifes too good to write right now || work therapy sesh inbound || should’ve gotten change for coffee lol || but just got 200 dollars || +++=-=-=-= this is the time to get some work done LOL finally doing the 2YT life o m g that took so long || givem it all pbd style I suppose || im too high to do anything right now lol going to drink coffee and pee || draw

Beyond the Cool Contest

2019-05-14 22:40:49 -0700 PDT 1041pm all my journals are getting hands heckout rocket reach https://twitter.com/jasnblack || spend 24 hours on new yorker || https://medium.com/s/story/how-i-fully-quit-google-and-you-can-too-4c2f3f85793a [outline] [history] Pale Blue Dot FM’s mission is to produce open source creative tech projects, and distribute these projects through digital and physical goods and services for all humans. We want to harness the power of art and modern technology to inspire empathy, augment lived experience, and provide an open source alternative to everything.

Lyrics Masterlist

2019-05-11 10:35:06 -0700 PDT sat 1036AM on Amtrak heading to mom ||| finally finalizing lyrics for the poliwat debut set 1 - Life is a sacred circle life is a sacred circle we dance to pray we pray to heal we heal to live we live to dance we dance to pray we rapy to heal we heal to live we live to dance life is a sacred circle 2 I am a spliff (A+B) Jump in the pool don't walk now hip hop with your hips out like a pool make you see colors infinity and unique (nique) x Loop Making love my hippy van she never forgetted it spliff Imma go down on you cause I love you kind of spliff remind you beautiful in case you forgotted if kind of spliff the love I get from you the love I get from you I feel indebted it spliff The Jokes from you more better than letterman spliff our dates so fresh so fun vogue vignetted it spliff these days michelle obama 2020 kinda spliff Imma rebel gone rogue and maryted it spliff {B} but meditate daily I tibetted it spliff late to work again cause cute dog I petted it spliff love old ladies I croququtted it spliff compose tunes each day I quarteted it spliff Used to be girls gone wild then forgetted it spliff she said she came but pretended it spliff last ex gone cold cheated it spliff girl slash my tire gotta jeanetted it spliff too much call of duty bayonetted it spliff halo tournaments double 0 competetitive spliff showed too much love to a girl she brexited spliff like good legislation until ammended it spliff?

On Train to Hotdog Mothers Day Weekend

2019-05-11 08:45:08 -0700 PDT Sat 845AM Just got on the train to see my mom and gma this weekend for mama day – forgot the gift of flowers and they wouldnt’ve made the trip anyway ||

Open Dialogue Constantly

2019-05-10 13:59:37 -0700 PDT Friday 2pm {{already>!?}} we just had breakfast in a way it feels like had a nice park session with bagels goat cheese fig spread and apple juice with ghost at the park by the painted ladies. having a nice day but I’m a little paralyzed about the money situation but I don’t care I know my dreams will come true if I keep working on them || like when it gets to the point where I don’t have a meal option again, I’ll just go record someone’s story I just meet and make a song out of it, do a few hundred of those and people will start caring.

Just Passing Hands B4 Bmb Drop

2019-05-09 13:01:22 -0700 PDT

Disturbia

2019-05-08 10:03:03 -0700 PDT 1003am || I’m disturbed as all hell || || Last night got eaten up from a wires issue || I need to throw away half my gear its driving me crazy || http://center-for-nonverbal-studies.org/htdocs/6101.html ||| Wed 903PM doin mangangs 听取 vizzy, just got out of a colab sesh with Nina real excited to make it || Carbonaceous chondrites 1006pm ok ok ok ok back to work its fire here right now ||

Listen to Ze Ebb Follow the Flow

2019-05-07 10:08:49 -0700 PDT Tuesday 1136 AM Haven’t made a single post, but I work all the time. Some who don’t work much post all the time, what am I doing? Why am I not comfortable sharing shit on the interent? I don’t understand my relationship to the web sometimes. I have two comission pieces, less than 100 dollars, I think it’s cause I can’t record into Ableton right now || But today is all about posting || finishing Death Ep with Ted ++ || setting up triggers and finishing the studio and getting a loan || if those three ||

What Can These Fucked Up Hands Do

2019-05-07 00:02:43 -0700 PDT Tuesday 1202AM ive always been afraid to share on social media and I don’t care who knows Im tired of being afraid the last episode of death fucked me up in a good way email campaign I love you ==-=- side note work hard blend in dont work all the time but work all the time but dont work all the time why I want this more than my next breath I want this more than my next breath ||

Can Musicians Change Their Genes Toplay Better

2019-05-06 07:39:24 -0700 PDT mon 739AM Im a new man || had a good cinco de mayo || nice and lokey and good people || just the flat mates || today I’m not smoking || I’m scout mic now || we’ll see how long it can go down || going to be a good pero and work on the comissions I got today || if I did phases in the day => wake up shower coffee web

Cancoon De Mayo HolidayM Never Ends My Head

2019-05-05 11:00:18 -0700 PDT *1101AM* today I’m not going to feel weird cause its AKs and my anniversay ay from back in the day - instead I’m just going to organize and upload in my underwear until the sun goes down. And make 50 bucks sending michael this vizzy I made last night, just need to polish it off and figure out the audio routing … 1215 if i roll this up she wins

My Dreams Blend With My Wake Banana Hands

2019-05-04 11:19:29 -0700 PDT 1119AM Its the best morning of the week - SATURDAY MORNING!!!! cam ted helkat and me makin pancakes and vibin || Im taking more notes on the QTF stuff || evolution REAL GOOD BANANANANANANANA PANCAKES || https://soundcloud.com/deetsa/hv2final2 - get a patron - apply reach out to KQED - send follow up to Nikki they get off by making shit no one can turn off

So Much for These Hands to My Brain Beach Day

2019-05-03 10:59:37 -0700 PDT Friday 11AM ON THE DOT > ok k ok ok ok ok ok last night recorded dope freestyles with Dimitrius and we caught up and || never spoke at the open mic thing at Node cause I was a little bitch but finishing phase 1 of the next ep, releasing an episode right now and going to right the pale blue pitch at the pale blue beach today with just a clipboard and a mirror and we all going to walk there and I’m charging the portable speaker and can’t wait !

This My Period of Willing Deprivation

2019-05-02 04:47:43 -0700 PDT 447am haven’t slept yet but the day is about to start || Im ahead of schedule || tyna finish bouncing this kevLo ++ Becca tape before a pale blue morning with tedhel || behind schedule || 258 and everything makes me want to cry now || helKat read saddest story || ++ my friends are helping me so much today teds making bus cards for pbd || Im bouncing audio for it ||

Ive Deprived Myself So Long

2019-05-02 04:47:15 -0700 PDT

Pinch Punch First of Month

2019-05-01 10:57:45 -0700 PDT wed 1058AM just getting up for some reason | today I’m money mic || and today I’ll add all the hands shits finally I swear || going to jog to coffee || 106 pm best jog best view so much fun lotta KL ++ VS NORF NORF \ asd safWaye WholeFoods made sandwhiches now its MONEY MIC DAY ||| this dope dude michael sent me his album and he’s giving me 50 bucks to make a vizzy ||

OSOD Saturdays Child Works for His Living

2019-04-29 10:06:16 -0700 PDT **1006 am ** asd yoga and pale blue morning with ted hel https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Raytheon this isn’t even the right day but I’m just getting caught up in the sauce of it all. just talked to hunter and damn I have been so stupid this last week. I promised him I would live stream tomorrow by 7 pm so that’ll be a deadline. it’s perfect cause then I’ll have that a stone’s throw ( one click away ) from paleblue.

Open Source or Die

2019-04-29 10:04:03 -0700 PDT

The Gaps in My Head

2019-04-28 18:20:42 -0700 PDT 620pm find myself @ supreme pizza again cause I my soul needs it. Didn’t get home till like 7 am, was hanging out late with Louis and his cuz Kevin. Kevin had 60 pounds on me but we grappled in the alleyway with all the art next to noisebridge and he got me in the end but I made him bleed all over his favorite shirt on accident. Louis used seltzer water to get it out and it worked great.

How to Make an Alien

2019-04-27 12:53:31 -0700 PDT 1253PM @ the apartment been a great day so far || setup twitch and OBS -=–=-= General notes: I don’t know what the cosmic vagina instrumental in the background but it sounds like Spotify or Youtube, help me identify it! where you find your head ? where you lay to rest ? where you head your stead ? where your hands where do you orient your feet where are your arms

What the Crazy Hands Do

2019-04-26 11:33:45 -0700 PDT what the crazy hands ? why the long face ? what do the crazy hands even do > ? 1226pm after all this time got pb up aha –=-=-=-=-=-=-= ||| what are my functions ||| 1259PM operation get sites online is a success right now got pale blue up now doing poliw.at lawl then its business cards by 6 B A B Y -=-=-=-=-= you

Dont Look at My Clipboard Like Its Getting on the Bus

2019-04-25 10:41:02 -0700 PDT 1042 AM I took a shower had sex ate breakfast got high and now I’m finishing up the pale blue site stuff and polishing off the second episode. life is but a show over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and again ! when he was a kid he got sucker punched on me I don't know where he punch me sucka punch how I reacted?

Getting Vocal Pedal to PP

2019-04-24 08:32:59 -0700 PDT 833AM On Bart it feels like I’m on a nice commute from somewhere. oh my god my Sequence ambitions have failed - as far as the uploading is concerned. I bet I could get a little ahead in a way. live by deliverables spent yesterday at the beach @ fisherman’s warf, got in the water a bit || we made a lot of music after a nice diner experience and got audio of

Day1 of Sequence and Always Behind

2019-04-22 20:58:30 -0700 PDT 858PM can’t believe I’m so behind already and nothing has even happened yet - __ – __ -==-=–= 1242AM hate myself but here’s the schema and we ship regardless ____ ==== going to run away and get shit done the second I wake up got 3 of the 5 at least of step 2 “ -=-=-=-=-== i missed the boat today but will set an alarm and nail the fuck out of it tomorrow ||

2 Weeks of Pilots Logs Slipped Through My Fingers

2019-04-20 10:58:11 -0700 PDT sat 1058 AM last night we had matt jack marina ted brian denis helen cam all in the same spot and had a great fucking time || I was trying to finish the PBD site, the sequence starts in 2 days \ \ but stopped by 10 and helped jack with an 8 minute max version of the sims sims for some play competition at piano fight - the winner gets 5 grand.

Me My Girl My Friends My Boys

2019-04-19 09:19:22 -0700 PDT lucys great lucy get s you more connected gets you more connected with humanity at large then more disconnected in your own social circles. || take a break lucys great lucy get s you more connected gets you more connected with humanity at large more disconnected in your own social circles. || I am the lucy I got the girl we got the lonely songbird

FBR L and Predictive Design

2019-04-18 11:02:32 -0700 PDT 1102AM at the apartment - just exported the 2nd FBR official, got hundred of them so just going to chip away, do one a day -===–=-==-=– been thinking for a while now about how I want each log to have a Dailies draft AJ MV hands Post poliwat || pbd - 1 laser per day 1 stranger recorded 1 freestyle sesh 1 pbHuBlog post end the night with music start the day with music

Blood on My Dick to Eating Beef Penis

2019-04-17 22:42:24 -0700 PDT 1044pm || you could call this day roller coaster || =-=-=-=-= =-=-=-=-= =-=-=-=-= =-=-=-=-= =-=-=-=-=

It All Started With My Hands and My Hands Never Failed

2019-04-16 23:50:38 -0700 PDT 1151pm yet ahahahaha worked all day on 🌏.fm S qq qqqxxqxqxqq]qqqxxqxqxqq worked all day on sunny day coded n uploaded av n downloaded native instruments n spliff in alleyway with cam n g and ts n next pbd ep question n found n all nighter inbound sunny day coded n uploaded av n downloaded native instruments n spliff in alleyway with cam n g and ts n next pbd ep question n found n all nighter inbound WHEN HASAS VAE MY HANDS EVR FIALED ME ?

G and T Nonprofit Hackathon

2019-04-16 20:58:34 -0700 PDT =-==-=—=-=-=-= tuesday 858pm there are only 2 types of people in this world but i don’t remember cause we went to the next conversational subject =-==-=-=–=-== he’s not on a 3 day plan schedule Throw them in the amazon prime waterboarding device for 299 and 99.9% of those interrogated speak within 7 minutes. Used to be 9.

If Then That Us Wakeup Danceparty

2019-04-16 11:13:09 -0700 PDT 1113AM on a good one right now, but terbz behind. not going to leave NB aside from body and gear needs. going to setup PBD tv today and finish all the websites and won’t leave until they’re all done BUT cam is going to smoke a tiny spliff at the top of dolo by the statue at 1130 and I could jog there real quick …. and the sun is shining bright so I might do that quickly cause I left my laptop charger here as well.

Miles Davis 4Loco Freestyle NightTimeBestTime

2019-04-15 00:16:38 -0700 PDT migrate => juul video each person I meet i become real close to them then they hit the vape once and die all these good looking people hit the vape and die but when I hit the vape I just feel good father yes son I want to kill you <= got 1219AM feels so good to be back on osx omg 142am IF YOU ARE TALKING TO ME WHEN I POLIW.

What Happens After the Full Send

2019-04-14 15:41:16 -0700 PDT 9pm @ NB freestyled with will and the dude that was an asshole last time but he was pretty nice this time ahahahahah men Im not going to lie - I feel fucking lost right now just freestyled and then found myself in the turing room, a combo between anarchist graffiti walls and fluorescent lighting from walmart its quiet here and the only album I need now is =-=-=-=-=-=-=-= sunday

HandDrawn Quantify and NothingDamn Else

2019-04-13 11:35:15 -0700 PDT alright the same schema gotta go down I know it ahahahahahh these people are so fucking cool I know it in my bones context quantify poliw.at poliw.at vitals some 50s hippies like %%^&**** - days out What Now =–==-=–=-=-=-=-= then my radio show is tonight but if I get the macbook then Im just going to have charlotte hit play for me on my show then I’ll install mashine and ableton and full send on that workflow stuff

What Did It All Start With

2019-04-13 11:23:09 -0700 PDT 1125 AM was jogging a bit with ghost but then all of a sudden, CRAZY GUY OUTSIDE THE COFFEE SHOP oh yeah we were in the coffeeeshoppp Ive been handwriting poliwat on this clipboard I spray painted red months ago and it’s been a nice calming change of pace. Hands.poliw.at is the new brain dump but stayed up till like 4-5 am don’t remember making this site, and then made the song site too cause that’s real needed.

These Hands Have Turnt

2019-04-13 03:50:26 -0700 PDT 0341pm and what hands have these turnt ? I made this because I sold my windows laptop so just have SMs other old lappy with ubuntu - peter wouldnt help me today and I have been spending a lot of time trying to get a good recording rig going. God is laughing at me but I’m used to it I AM BACK ON after %%^&**** - days out What Now

tEHES HANDS

2019-04-13 03:41:17 -0700 PDT 0341pm I AM BACK ON after %%^&**** - days out Text secondary Dashed Thick